5:16 PM, Wednesday
So, I'm tired.So, tonight, I start my new plan. I’ve decided to just wing it. I have no idea what type of equipment they have at the park. I’m hoping for a pole to climb and I’m certain they’ll have monkey bars. I plan to spend about a half hour there and I’ll report back tomorrow with results. I also plan to run to the park. It’s about 3/4 of a mile one way and 1/4 of a mile the other. I’ll take the 3/4 of a mile route to the park and walk the quarter mile back home when I’m done.
AND other life changes. I plan to not use my computer after my workout. So, once 7 pm rolls around and I go for my workout, my computer time is also over. I feel that I fall asleep better if I’m not on my computer before bed. So, goodbye nighttime computer use. I’ll miss you.
Today was a pretty good day at work. I worked about 8 hours at time and a half. I know my boss didn’t want me to work quite THAT long, but it’s better than the 10 hour day I thought I’d be doing. One patient I couldn’t see yet because we don’t have authorization and another I couldn’t see because the family declined therapy for a patient who has a POA in place. Still, long enough of a day. Then I came home and weeded the area around my fence where I have some random stuff growing, mostly hosta’s.
I hope you are all enjoying your Memorial Day!
This past week with all the processed food has been wonderful and awful. Wonderful because I love the taste of all that processed crap (aka dog food on this blog). But as of yesterday, the headaches started. I’ve popped a ton of asprin between yesterday and today and I think I know why- the over abundance of chemicals in ALL processed foods. Yes, even your cereal is processed and loaded with chemicals.
With all the negative side effects- not just headaches, but fatigue and general malaise- I’ve decided that I’m starting to eat healthy again two days early. So tomorrow (Saturday) I’ll be back to eating my non-processed foods. The week will of course allow for my two cheat meals which will most likely be Tuesday night and one of the weekend days- probably next Friday.
I know usually after a week like this where I switch back to healthy food I do actually get sick. I think it’s just a flushing of all the crap from my system so hopefully it won’t be so severe as times in the past where I’ve cut junk out of my eating habits. It certainly has been a better week than other times I’ve done this.
At the beginning of this week I was 122.5. Over the past four weeks I’ve been between 122.5 and 124.5 lbs. This AM I was 125.5 so this week hasn’t set be back to far. I’m glad for that because I was a tad worried when I was scarfing down some of the things I’ve eating this past week (like that pan of brownies).
The food plan begins again tomorrow but the workout plan begins on Monday so I’ll be adding my workouts soon!
See ya’ll tomorrow night!
This week the plan is to just gorge myself on bad foods and catch up on housework, laundry, and SLEEP!
That will all change next week. This week I’m continuing with my very healthy lunches and those will go on and on forever. I’m getting in a salad a day five days per week at a minimum like I wanted, fruits and veggies, and for the past few weeks no rice, breads, or pasta except during one of my two cheat meals per week. I have been dipping my strawberries in sugar but I am trying to cut down on the sugar I use with them. This week I’ve had Culvers Monday night, pancakes and hashbrowns tuesday night, and tonight was pizza. Tomorrow is the tupperware party so I’m sure there will be snacks.
Next week I’ll be back on track with my two cheat meals per week and I’m going to get back to my workouts next week. Next week actually starts my bodyweight summer workouts. June, July, and August were to be bodyweight. Three nights per week (since for some reason 7pm is my best workout time). I’m planning to do at LEAST one workout per week at the park. I don’t have plyo boxes or a rope to climb so hopefully I’ll find something sufficient at the park. Plus my daughter will have fun at the park. Maybe she’ll like me better if I take her to the park more often… bribery you know. Since I’m hoping for five workouts per week, I’d like two of them to be weight lifting- Pavel suggests the side press and deadlifts. And that is actually all I plan to do with real weights. I’m going to be a bit non- commital about them and not worry about reps, weight, or really anything other than going to the basement and picking something up at least once when I do go down there.
My focus with the bodyweight exercises is first to be able to actually move my body through space without help. Think of those monkey bars… can you go all the way across? I don’t know if I can. That and pull ups and single leg squats. So basically, strength to move myself by myself. Last time I did a single leg squat, I needed a strap to help me. By summers end, I’d like to be able to do that by myself. No help. My second thing to focus on is power. I was thinking agility for awhile, but really, I’m thinking power would be better for now since that is where I am lacking more so than agility. Lots of jumping this summer even if I do have to bring out my coffee table to jump up to.
Of course summer also has nice extra’s. Swimming in our pool, running, and going for bike rides with Josh. I usually gain weight during summer and loose during winter so I’d like to break that trend.
So that’s the plan 
. What are all of you up to for the summer?
My semester is done. I’m going to take a day or two to put my life back together… hehe, it’s been a mess here with everything falling apart around me. Anyway, I should be back to full swing blogging by Friday night! I’ll be checking in on you all and seeing how much I’ve missed! I might come back tonight for a bit as well.
My last exam was physics and I took it at 11pm last night. I could barely concentrate- way past my bedtime and all. Took nearly the full time to take the exam (two hours) and then had to get up for work this morning by 6. I just kept changing my answers and finally I said the f-bomb and hit submit. I didn’t do terrible- looks like I’ll get a B in this class. I wont cry myself to sleep or anything so no worries. I’m not particularly fond of B’s, but I’ll live.
See you all soon!
I have two weeks of classes left. I am still alive and kicking. I just wanted to let you all know I’ll be back to blogging very soon! Sorry I’ve been so MIA and I’m way behind with everyone else’s blogs as well.
Nutritionally I’ve been doing great. I’ve not been doing well with the workouts but hopefully will get back to them soon. I’ve been too busy making excuses for not doing them when I know I should be.
Anyway, I suppose, I’ve got to finish my study guide and still have a paper to write so I’ll try to stop in before too long to update everyone on what I’m doing
Miss you all!
Starting over really doesn’t happen. We don’t really get a re-do (unless the guy you’re playing pool with thinks you’re cute). Once we go down a path, we can’t just turn back. We all make bad choices at some point in our lives. Some of us marry the wrong person (I did the first time). I can’t just go back and re-do my life from that point. Life just doesn’t work that way. I can’t erase the damage that my first marriage did to me. I can move on from that point and hopefully on to a better place.
With nutrition, we can’t undo what we ate (and throwing it back up is just plain gross and comes with it’s own sets of complications like deteriorating teeth and the esophagus). Same with exercise, we can’t undo a routine we did that caused an injury and we can’t go back and do more.
Once you walk down a road, the road behind you is forever behind you. Turning back is not an option. Even if you tried to turn back, you can’t erase the steps you’ve already taken. Starting over is not turning back. Starting over doesn’t start you from the same point as before either. I’d be 19 again if I were able to start over.
Starting over really is just making yet another fork in the road. We can see that we’ve gone down a bad path and stay on it, or we can get the hell off the damn road! Sometimes turning off the road is spontaneous, like the end of my first marriage. Other times getting off the road is an accident- like roads with lots of curves and lots of little side roads. Sometimes we’re not paying attention and stay going to the right when the road really curved to the left. For me, that’s like my exercise. I do really well when I’m paying attention to where I’m going and can set the cruise here and there, but other times I need to watch the road a little closer.
To start over, all we need to do is take that turn off the road we’re on. Seems so darn easy but so many times the new road has cross roads with the old road and we get back on the old road (sometimes ahead a bit and sometimes back aways and having to retrace our old steps). Sometimes we need a plan of action before turning off the road. It’s hard to turn from a road when you know it so well.
Starting over isn’t easy because we don’t get that start point back. If re-do’s were possible, we’d all be miserable anyway, going back and changing our choices to no end. I’m glad time travel isn’t possible. We’d all be so self destructive nothing would get done. Starting from a new point- an unfamiliar point, takes effort.
So, I’m going to start making a bit more effort. My issue- fatigue, muscle tension, migranes (really bad nearly every spring and no I don’t have allergies). I know a good diet is probably the biggest help to all these. So, I’m going to turn off my road here of all the comfortable foods I know and walk down a dark scary looking path that might have me eating cashews. Tomorrow starts with taking chips and crackers out of my diet, but I’m going to try a week (with one cheat meal on Thursday evening with my mom) of eating things that live then die. If it doesn’t rot, I’m not going to eat it. Honey is excluded from that but I’m not eating honey anyway. I hate the taste of it. Fruits, vegetables, nuts, seeds, and meats are all that’s left. I’ve been considering adding in beef- but it would have to be steak and not ground burgers- so I’m not so sure about that. I know I should be eating organ meats but I am unable to bring myself to do that at this point in my life. Give me time. Lots of time. Like I said, this path is a bit scary but this path is only a seven day path. It’s like a small hike. Then I can decide to turn back to my comfy cozy road of ill health and bad eating, stay on my path, or take a road somewhere in the middle.
To bad it’s only the roads behind us that are on the map. It’d sure be nice to have a map to the one’s ahead.
Sorry guys for the lack of posts here. It should get better in four weeks. I’ve got yet another two exams coming up next week. One for gynecology and one for ultrasound physics. I should maybe be posting again by then 
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Wanted to let everyone know I’m still alive. Barely, but I’m here. Classes are tough but I’ll get through them. I did my check off for scanning the kidneys and bladder last night so I’m a step ahead in our labs at least anyway. Next is the spleen. That should be easier because there’s not much to it, yet still tough because I’ve got to try to get good pictures while going betweeen rib spaces. We can’t image through bone in the ultrasound world. Propagation speed is too different.
In all, one more year and a month and I should be in the process of graduating! Again…
This post is inspired by Jon at Storm Force Fitness. I get his emails occasionally. This one hit home, it was about fitness, health, losing weight, gaining muscle not being a easy linear point A to point B kind of thing. It’s about peaks and valleys. Mountains and oceans…
I lose a lot of steam when I’m expecting particular results each and every week and don’t see them. I get frustrated and wonder sometimes, why the heck am I doing this? Sometimes I even gain a pound or two and get really pissed at myself. But getting healthy is not a tightrope walk. It’s more like a hike. A tightrope walk, although difficult, is very straight forward. You get on, you walk across. Each step brings you closer and closer to your goal. Each step is going to be very focused (you don’t want to fall) and deliberate. Each step brings you and equal distance closer to your goal. A hike is different. When going downhill, we’re going to go faster. Sort of like some weeks we’re moving faster towards our goal. Or it might seem that heading toward our goal is easier than other time. Other weeks are like those uphill climbs when hiking. Each step is a struggle and it takes determination and fortitude to get to the top. Reaching our goal is a battle and very difficult at times. Sometimes we might have to stop and catch our breath going up that hill. Sometimes we might be going to fast going down the hill and might tumble.
I need to stop thinking of getting fit as a week by week or day by day process. It’s not. Sometimes are really going to be difficult (like my motivation right now) and other times will breeze by (like the months of Jan and Feb). Sometimes it’s going to be hard to stick to an eating plan. Other times it’ll be a breeze- like walking down that hill. Even other times will be like tripping over my shoelaces going downhill and I might tumble and bumble and fall on my… I might even fall into a donut and a big glass of pepsi. But those times are not the focus. Those falls and rests to catch my breath don’t have to be the end. They are what they are. It’s not what I did (the poor nutrition or missed workout) it’s what the overall pattern is. My overall pattern has been poor this past month and I’m having trouble getting back on track but that’s for another post… The most important thing is that these bad times dont kill us and they don’t define us. I’m not defined by the pizza my hubby just ordered that is at our door right now as I type. I’m not defined by the fact that I’ll have a couple pieces of it. My dieting life is defined by the overall choices I make- which will not be daily pizza.
So, don’t worry so much about what happened yesterday. It’s not going to change. It might suck and might have consequences, but tomorrow can always be a better day if we choose that.
I’ve been experiencing bilateral hip pain the past couple days. Usually this goes with my low back pain but I have nearly no back pain right now (never have no back pain). I’m not sure what’s causing the discomfort in my hips, but it’s more posterior and seems more muscular. If anyone has any suggestions, I’m willing to try them. So far I’m continuing with hamstring stretches (which help my back) and piriformis stretches. Doing bodyweight prisoner squats this AM were pretty damn uncomfortable!
Oh, and low back extension also causes increase pain in my hips.
I hope you are all enjoying your Sunday’s. Probably with your families . It’s a nice day here in WI and I might force my daughter to go for a walk with me later.
For something different on Sunday- A random survey is in order.
What would you do if:
Stranded in a forest alone: I’d probably eat grass and leaves and stuff. If there was a river or stream, I’d follow it to civilization . Otherwise, I’d rely on my own sense of bad direction.
Sensed someone stalking you: I’d stalk them instead. Stalk the stalker .
You suddenly developed superhuman strength: Go on with life
You saw a dead human: I’d call the ambulance/hospice/or family depending on situation of how the body was found. At work, most likely would be hospice and I’ve done that before.
Someone anonymously sent a love note: if it’s anon, I’d delete it and move on. No time in my life for games like that.
You became blind: I’d have to change careers. I’d not be able to do my job blind.
Your car breakds down beside a graveyard: Depends, if in a rush, call the tow truck and get my car fixed. Otherwise, wander the graveyard a while. Karma and I used to do this when we lived closer to one. Very quiet place to go and relax and the old graves don’t get many visitors so we’d visit the older graves where their families are probably long gone as well.
Your bestfriend calls you at 4am: Answer the phone! She’d not call unless it was an emergency at that hour.
You could bring anyone back from the dead: Tempting as it’d be, I’d leave people where they lie.
Someone kept staring at you: Stare back and start up a conversation
Someone ate your lunch: if they needed my lunch that badly, they can have it. I’d eat later.
You got 100 free spray cans: Since I’m not sure what the spray cans are- hair spray or paint, I’d be hoping they’d be filled with paint or something fun. Overall I don’t much like spray cans as they’re bad for the environment.
A horse came chasing after you: Since I can’t outrun the horse, I’d run to something I could climb. Far as I know, horses can’t climb trees or a trellis.
